It is amazing to me how time can fly by and also seem excruciating long at the same time. I have found that the more overwhelmed by God my life seems to be the quieter I tend to be. Maybe it's because I am more in tune with just how tiny my thoughts are or maybe it's a fear of not adequately expressing the amazing work I am beholding from the Lord. But it seems to me that this is hardly the time to be quite. It's the time to yell from the roof tops!
|We added JOY to our Christmas decor this year and I love how fitting it is.|
Just as a matter of a tiny praise that blessed my heart was that Phil was home this past year on every holiday; Thanksgiving Day, Christmas Eve and Day and New Years Eve (even most recently Easter). This hasn't happened in our home since the first year we were married maybe I'm not even sure about that. It was AMAZING and a gift that I do not want to overlook in my Praise proclamations!
This was my forth retreat to be at but it was my first retreat to participate as a Hope Mom. Normally at the retreats I have been simply a behind the scenes gal but in now being a Hope Mom after my miscarriage in May I had the added responsibilities or facilitating groups, discussions and telling my story. I felt so inadequate. selah.
I think the feeling of inadequacy was a blessing. I learned just how God can use me when I am most vulnerable and most weak.
|This is a song that my heart |
has cried out to so many times.
I tell you all that because with great joy I also want to share with you all the biggest praise of all from the past few months and that is that after returning home from the Hope Mommies retreat just a week later I found out I am expecting! I'm pregnant! The joy and the fear are overwhelming but God has blessed us with a MIRACLE and we loudly rejoice!!! We know that this tiny life is created by God, given to us by God. God has answered our prayers and the prayers of so many of our friends and family that have been praying for us in this journey.
We continue to covet your prayers for this little baby as it grows and develops. We also ask that you please praise God with us for this miracle. We got to hear the heartbeat and see it's sweet little legs kicking around and it was almost too much for me to process. I felt totally at a loss for words or complete thoughts. But as my good friend reminded me that while it is too hard for me to simply rest easy I can choose joy and not fear.
You will keep in perfect peace
those whose minds are steadfast,
because they trust in you.
Trust in the Lord forever,
for the Lord, the Lord himself, is the Rock eternal.
Here's a beginning bump pic. :)